Anonymous asked: Hi. I'll cut to the chase here. Don't be an idiot. At 5'2", your current weight of 118lbs is absolutely perfect, medically speaking. Being 100lbs would put you in the underweight category. That's not healthy, and trust me, neither is it attractive. Also, at the age of 15, you shouldn't be dieting, because by starving yourself you could stunt your growth. You've mentioned your boyfriend; if he begged you to eat it's because he cares about you enough to want you to be healthy and not enslaved by your obsession with food. From a guy's point of view (I'm male, by the way), he's also probably thinking how gross it would be if you got horribly bony. Most guys are more attracted to curves than bones. It seems to me that you think it's glamorous or something to be anorexic, that maybe it makes you better than other people. No, it doesn't. It makes you look stupid and shallow. Being thin doesn't magically make you happy, better looking, or superior to anyone else. Why don't you concentrate on your school work and friendships and enjoying your youth instead of how many calories you've eaten that day.
PS please don't pull that 'I can't help it I'm ill' shit on me, since you clearly have no intention of getting any help or becoming well. Therefore, you've lost my sympathy.

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I don’t particularly know when you left this for me, but thank you. I was on the phone with my boyfriend when I read this, he was getting mad at me for not eating… I could hear the pain in his voice, and I do truly love him- it killed me. You’re 100% correct. I am fucking stupid, and I’m shallow, I’ve been obsessed with looking perfect. But no one is, nor ever will be, perfect. I didn’t intend on pulling that I’m ill shit on you, because, unlike what you said, I do want to become well. For so long I have been trying to live up to someone else’s definition of beauty (not my boyfriend’s, but someone close to me who influences me tremendously), someone who tells me beauty is not what I am… It’s not working, it never will. Someone who loves you shouldn’t attempt to change you, correct?… But tonight has changed me, I don’t want to starve myself. None of these people who do this can honestly say they’re happy, they’re just as miserable as they were when they were heavier. Where I’m trying to go with all of this is thank you, you have opened my eyes. I read this at a good time I suppose, because if I wasn’t reading this while on the phone with my boyfriend, who was hurt so deeply, I wouldn’t have changed. Two things at once, telling me what I’m doing is horrible and fucking me up. I want to live, I want to be happy. So fucking what, I have meat on my bones… Skeletons are not gorgeous, and that’s what these girls think (myself too, at one time). I don’t think I’m going to post on this Tumblr anymore- it has been rendered useless. Sorry for the long rant, I don’t know if you’ll read this… But thank you. I think it’s time for recovery.